This is the next installment in our anonymous Secret Stories series.
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sometimes, i wake up and all i want to do is disappear and forget everything, forever.
3 years ago, when i was 12, my best friend tried to kill herself, and i guess this is probably what haunts me most, because i’ve not told anybody, not even my parents. only her family and i knew, and i guess i found it really terribly hard to cope because what did i know? i was so young and so scared.
i stopped eating, and sleeping, and everything hurt.
i wish i could say that i’m better now, but always at night, at my most vulnerable state, i ache i ache i ache and i don’t know how much longer i can do this for.
i don’t eat very much, anymore.
i’m 39kgs, my BMI is about 14 and it disgusts me so much.
i’m trying to be strong, please believe that i’m trying. sometimes, it’s just harder to be happy, and i feel like giving up.
and now i feel like one of those complaining teenagers. sorry. i’m trying, really, really hard, but i can’t help but to not want to be, anymore. sometimes my secrets get the better of me.
thank you for listening.